I have always been overweight, but last year I lost a lot of weight doing a VCLD diet and it triggered some really terrifying levels of binge eating. I managed to put on every ounce of the 3.5 stone I lost in less than 6 months. I'm still really struggling with the starve binge cycle, but can't talk to anyone about it in real life as I am ashamed. DH is naturally tall and thin, plus he has ASC, so finds it difficult to see things from my perspective. He is very much on the 'if you want to lose weight, stop eating' sort of wave length, which is no bloody help to me as I really can't!
Anyway, he has gone out tonight so, despite having a really healthy week, food wise, I ordered enough Chinese food for at least two people and scoffed as much as I could fit in. So far, so normal (for me). However, I've just gone upstairs and made myself throw it all up again and am secretly annoyed that I don't think I got it all up! I've never done that before but it felt like a sort of compulsion.
I think I have a problem...