On the outside I know I appear confident and I suppose in some ways I have a solid core of good values and self-worth yet at the same time I am so hard on myself and have some unhealthy thoughts.
For example I did well in a sport competition this weekend. I should feel happy and proud yet I am comparing myself to those that are better and those who look better. It's so shallow but I place too much worth in looks. I love other people for who they are and couldn't care on their body size or prettiness but sometimes I ruin my happiness or pride by feeling sad that I don't look beautiful or I'm not tall, willowy and therefore look good doing sport.
There is always someone better, prettier and you just have to have self worth in the things that matter.
I don't think social media helps or the fact that the women in my sport club are stunning. I'm 40 now too so worry about my age.
Talk some sense into me