I’m posting because when my dd was born I had to go back ft when she was 6 months as dh lost his job and we weren’t entitled to any benefits due to me being on ‘maternity’ so government counted as full salary.
When I went back I went back and moved jobs to the job from hell . At that point I quit. Dd has started a school type nursery ie 9-3 in a school and although I had a nanny I resented paying her when dd was mainly in nursery. Finding childcare proved a nightmare so I became a sahm.
Dd now turning 6 and I went back pt recently but I hate pt work. I had a career before and this is impossible to do the job properly. I’m trying to be grateful that my situation is ok but at the same time I’m unhappy. I like doing a job properly and don’t feel I can achieve that pt. I went to an interview today for a ft position. I’m worried though as I felt it was ok when dd was a baby that I was out pretty much all week but now I’m worried as she knows I’m always there now.
I would really like to give the ft job a shot but working out wrap around childcare and the fact I’d be out the house 7am-8pm minimum 5 days a week worries me. In a selfish way I know my dh will be wfh two days a week so dd won’t have no parent there and I feel like I’d get 100x better quality time than me nagging her to do stuff she needs to get done every evening.
Any advice? Not judging in any way just would like someone to come along and say it’s fine either way tbh. Being a sahm has definitely allowed me some wonderful times especially in the school holidays but term times are a drag for us all here.