Sorry its a long one. I got chatting to a guy on online dating over 10 years ago. We never ended up meeting but kept each other on fb. He had several relationships and I went on to marry. A few years ago on valentines day he messaged me to say I was the one woman he'd always been attracted to. My marriage had been bad prior to this but I had stayed as we had young kids. I admitted this to him and told him I thought he was attractive too. We text on and off nearly meeting but then he blocked me. A while later he unblocked me to apologise and said he'd had alot of issues in his personal life. By this time he had a gf, we kept chatting but it's always been quite heated between us as we both know how attracted we are to each other but both feel guilty about it. We decided to meet to see whether it was just the excitement of it but the day before he blocked me again. Fast forward a few years later I ended up nearly bumping into him but avoided him as I didn't know what to do. I ended up making another fb to look him up and saw posts on his page that were really sad. I decided to message him to say I had nearly bumped into him and I was sorry he had gone through such a tough time. I knew he was still with his gf but we started texting each other daily. He opened up about his struggles and I told him what had been going on with my life it. One night our chat turned sexual, the next day I told him I thought we should meet on the understanding we didn't let anything happen as I felt it wouldn't be so heated between us once we met. He said he felt it was a bad idea as he knew he would end up wanting something to happen. We never met but kept chatting with it going between it being sexual and then stopping it with us both saying we wanted to make sure we stayed friends as we do get on really well. One day he messaged me saying he was upset and was going to block me. He sent me a few messages that I knew were because he was upset then he blocked me from everything. I know it's wrong that both of us behaved like that when we were in relationships. It's been a few months now and I've tried to just forget him again but I do still think about him. I know we were in the wrong but it's hard to forget when we both have admitted we are very attracted to each other and we both feel we can open up to each other. I don't know what my exact point is posting I just wanted to see if others have had similar experiences.