I constantly feel like time is running out. Age anxiety?

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This will a bit absurd since I'm just about to turn 21!

For the last few months, I've had a constant nagging feeling that time is running out, life is too short, life will be over in a blink of an eye, etc etc. Is this similar to health anxiety?

Before I was very comfortable and viewed 30 as 'young' and late 30's/early 40's as the best time in life. However, it seems 'time' in general seems to be running out by then.

I'm about to retrain and take a huge pay cut, I'll become a student. I won't be qualified until 4 years from now. It all seems like I should've enjoyed this all sooner.

I'm proud of what I've achieved in a ridiculously short amount of time. I left school at 16 (not entirely my fault but still a regret), now earn a very good salary at 20. I am soon to celebrate my 2nd wedding anniversary, I have a wonderful, clever and beautiful DC, etc etc. But it all seems too jammed and then not jammed enough. Yet, I don't regret things because quite simply, I'm proud of who I am today and what I have achieved. Goodness knows what I'm on about with all this back and forth

However, the bottom line is I feel a nagging sense of 'you're running out of time'. Not time for life, but time to enjoy my golden youth. I feel I have perhaps waisted a lot of these precious years not being careless enough.

I'm frequently worrying about deaths - In particular that of my Grandmother. There is nothing wrong with her, she's just getting older. I find this incredibly unsettling. I worry about my DH, I know one day he could very possibly go first and I'll be left in utter heartbreak. My soulmate would've disappeared before me.

Are these feelings normal? Should I speak to someone? I appreciate that I'm probably making very little sense. I often feel like my mind is running at a hundred miles per hour

Doubts about the retraining? Try to deal with the feelings, or they might precipitate something damaging like an affair. But 'normal' as in part of the human experience I think - I felt very anxious and unsettled before getting married, for example. Try to picture what the next phase of life might look like, what shared and individual goals you and your partner have, what things would make day to day life just a little more fun.

My goodness it seems like you’ve packed about 15-20 years of life into a very short period of time. 20 with a good job, husband and children, no time is not running out . Having read your thread title I expected you to be late forties / early fifties.
It’s that old adage ‘ youth is wasted on the young’ people retrain these days well into their forties - bearing in mind most people are going to be working until they are nearly seventy that still gives nearly 25 years if they retrain at 45.
As for worrying about your DH and grandmother, many people may say it’s anxiety which obviously it is but just normal growing up and appreciating that life is precious which as a child or teenager you probably never even contemplated.
It’s sounds like your doing fabulously well but occasionally just remember to breath 😃

Just keep telling yourself (and anyone who will listen) that you will be living to 100 - then you will start to believe it yourself too.

That's what I do.