Just so fed up of studying wish I’d never started

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Doing an MA 2 more assignments due next Monday then the dissertation to do. I’m fed up of it- it’s a beautiful day i have two young dc I want to be out with them playing in the sun but I’ve been studying again all day :(
If I’m not a work, I’m cleaning, ironing or sorting kids. There’s no fun. If I do have downtime I feel sick at what I should be doing.
I want to cry honestly wish I’d never started the bloody thing ;(

No advice just I know exactly how you feel. After my emotional abusive manipulative husband coerced me into giving up my job to follow his, i am now stuck in studying to retrain and get a job to give me back some independence from him whilst he, the fucking bastard, is off playing with them in a forest. I hate him and I resent every second of every weekend that I dont' get to spend with my kids.

Oh well, back to the books.

I've been there myself and it's bloody hard work, at times soul-destroying. But it will be worth it in the end.

Towards the end of my course, I actually found being kinder to myself about the hours I was putting in and being a bit more flexible about it helped.

You have all my empathy!

I remember at this point in the MA year thinking I would simply have to give up. Was totally exhausted, felt I'd mismanaged my time and there was no way I could get to the end successfully. Actually went to the Head of Dept and almost cried.

Honestly, you can do it - and it will be worth it. Dig in and get the assignments done. Then breathe a sigh of relief.

Is the dissertation on something you've chosen? Or at least something you're vaguely interested in?

When will it all be over?

I hear you! I have 2 MSc assignments to do by Friday. I have chained myself to my desk.

It will be worth it in the end (I keep telling myself this).

Right there with you - I have two MSc assignments due at the end of April and they are slowly killing me. It's a gloriously sunny Saturday and I'm staring at a report

Same here I have 5000 words for the end of May and haven't started the modules . Eek.

:( fuck never check the word count optimistically thought I was nearly half way through I’m nowhere near 😭
Will it be worth it?! I really hope so feels like I’m sacrificing a lot for little gain. Wasn’t hoping to have an easy day tomo for mother’s Day no chance now I need to get another 1000 words done by Monday

Oooh you have my sympathy, I'm skiving off phd work today to do early mothers day stuff then it's back to the books tomorrow for a 12 hour stint as dh is at work. If I'm studying I feel resentful of what I'm missing then if I'm not studying I feel guilty.

Keep on with the MA, it'll be over soon and you'll have your life back. Mine got me much better job. It will be worth it!

Huge respect gone on working towards a PHD that’s amazing.
Nail on head about feeling guilty either way :(

No my MA was more intensive! The PhD is easier cos there are fewer multiple deadlines and it's just pass or fail so less pressure to do well, you just need to finish. I hated my MA so much. Kudos to everybody doing one and raising a family = Superwomen!

I remember this! It feels good after, i promise!

Also (currently) studying part time for an MA as well as working 3 days a week 😫 I’ve a DD that I have to put into an day extra nursery, poor girl so I can get it done (impossible on weekends) so it’s costing me a fortune too.

I’ve been asking myself the SAME question, why did I EFFING start this??

(Like you to retrain) but there are some days I GENUINELY regret it!

BUT I’ve completed too much to quit......I’ve 1 more module to do.

Once you get into the swing of dissertation it’ll fly by, it did for me am - and I never thought it would!

Come on - you can do it 💪!

(I have to, got to the point that it I HAVE to make it work, invested too much time, effort and money)!!!

It’s like wading through quicksand. All this hard work, and I’m very dubious that me end assignment will pass. Every day off spent studying, every annual leave day. Just hate it.

I’d just like to add that it’s easy to lose sight when you’re in it and surrounded by others doing the same or similar courses.

My MA was a miserable time. It didn’t help that everyone on it was also miserable and all competing for similar jobs but not getting anywhere and so there was the constant pressure of wondering if after all of the work I’d put in, it wouldn’t lead anywhere.

But once you’ve finished and can step away from that whole environment, you’ll feel so proud of what you’ve achieved and realise that not many others can say they’ve done what you have.

Good luck. Push through and set tiny goals like 250 words = a biscuit and brew.

I'm in the same boat. I've 5 assignments due by the end of April. I've been ill for the last 3 weeks and have done very little. The panic is now setting in.

Waves at fellow students!

I'm sweating bricks currently awaiting grades and feedback for a pile of MSc assignments, freaking in case I've screwed them up. Have a couple of essays to write during April too, and dissertation.

I do love it and am excited by it, but go into regular spirals of fear of failure. It's exhilarating, I suppose

Paid £45 to put ds in nursery and this morning I’ve done about 300 words of utter crap :( hope this afternoon will be more productive

Hi all just wading in to say hi, I'm doing pgdip/MSc and have procrastination overload....I have 2 weeks until I have to hand in 1 and then another 2 weeks to another deadline :(

Why do I do this to myself every boody time??

Hope you get on better than me sunny I thought I had enough time to get it all done if I worked solidly through weekend then Dh reminded me he’s away all day Saturday so I will have kids and no family around to help 😥 so I need to find 10 hours between now and Monday to get this all done f**k