I'm the person who always seems to get things wrong, like park in a not very sensible place, (even though I probably deliberated over what would be best!) get into your way in the shops and just generally be awkward. I "Dad Dance" and when I'm feeling nervous I always say the wrong bloody thing!
Videos of myself if I know I'm being filmed are excruciatingly embarrassing, as if I don't know where the look and glance at the camera.
My parents are wonderful and I don't mean this as a criticism of them at all but they are both very similar. I feel like this is my Achille's heel as although I've been successful with my career and run my own team I felt I could be a much more effective leader if I was less... well.. awkward!
I think it could be a combination of an actual problem and also associated self consciousness that means I both come across as unsure but also overinflate incidents in my mind afterwards. It's verified by others though that I can be pretty awkward. I guess it's a self fulfilling prophecy as when I feel self confident (and I can often fake it by thinking through scenarios and how I'll act and what I'll say in advance, right down to body language)
I'm pretty good at self improvement and I've changed a huge amount as I've got older but I really want to improve my mannerisms and become more assertive as I have a 1 year old and I don't want her to take after me. DH is the opposite though so hopefully she'll learn from him!
I believe in acting on things but don't really know where else to look - are there books on say body language coaching that might help? Hypnotherapy? Acting courses? I'll try anything!