I'm feeling emotional.

[iThinkItsTheGin]

I always feel sad. Happy or not I always feel teary. I seem to find a negative in everything now.

If I see something happy happen I can only think of why didn't it happen to me or that will never happy to me.

I have a good life, with a great family and reasonable friends. My DP is wonderful and very supportive. He has started to notice that I am down much more often.

The best way to describe it is: I feel like I'm standing on the edge, and I could fall at any second, I'm constantly balancing emotion wise and am terrified I'm going to drop off the edge.

Have you seen a doctor? It would sound like depression or some other form of mental illness and there is likely help available, you won't need to live like this,

I have anxiety and have had CBT. But I feel like I control it a lot more than I used to. I feel in control of my panic attacks and how to manage when my anxiety is set off.

I just dont feel like I am depressed, when in preoccupied, say when I'm busy at work, I'm happy, i feel normal. But he majority of the day I am constantly picking at myself, always finding reasons in my head why I'm not worthy and why i dont deserve the support and love people give me.

I'm abit scared to go to the doctor because I dont want to get a diagnosis of depression, I dont want it to be official and then burden my family with it. I dont want people to worry about me. Theres much better things they can do with their time.

But op. By not seeking help your then subject them to living with you feeling like this, that's worse. Depression, or whatever it is, is not shameful, it can be fixed, get help and get it sorted.