I really dislike myself

[Mississippilessly]

This is prob not helped by sleep deprivation courtesy of my 6 month old son.
But the more I think about it the more I dislike myself.
I'm inefficient with time. Baby will only really nap on or with me. I've managed to read a few books but I've just realised I should have listened to podcasts or got my kindle rather than fucking about on MN.
I have no sense of direction. I get lost a lot.
I am not practical - I dont know how to do lots of basic things.

Basically I just cant really do anything. Not sure how my son will look up to me for anything.

You grew a new human and have kept him alive and healthy for six months.

Thats pretty awesome and i reckon that's enough for now!

Cut yourself some slack

That made me smile- thank you.
Yes I have kept him alive. I shouted at him last night though and felt so bad. He's so small and vulnerable.

It's the sleep deprivation. You are the most wonderful person in the world to your baby.

You are awesome! Agree- you grew a human! Cut yourself some slack. Once he’s up and about, crawling around you won’t have that lovely sleepy bonding time and will crave being able to mess around on mn!

Yes he is desperate to crawl bless him. At the now it he cries any time I leave him so I'm hoping crawling will help that.

Dont know how I can perk myself up.