This might be long, sorry. It also maybe would have been better in Forces Sweethearts but I'm not sure there's much traffic in there.
Long story short, both late 20s and been together for nearly 6 years.
DP is in the process of applying to join the RFA (Best way to explain what that is is it is a civilian manned support to the Royal Navy so the job is much and such the same as if joining the Royal Navy but he won't be in the military).
The first three years he will be based for 30ish weeks at college in Blackpool (we live in North Scotland) to learn his trade, then 4 months at sea and then repeat that for three years. After he is qualified it'll be roughly 4 months at sea followed by 3 months at home.
He has one last interview to go, having passed 2 interviews and various tests etc and you only get through to the final interview if they are quite confident you will pass, so it's looking very likely he will get in.
I was okay ish about it all until now and I'm having a serious wobble (he doesn't know I'm having a wobble).
I don't know how often we will see each other during the college phase, the longest we haven't seen each other for is a week. We will be broke, he's literally halving his wage for this. He will have to live in student halls which is making me feel weird but I can't put my finger on why?! I'll have to step up and pay virtually all the bills etc and I'll be up here in Scotland, alone every night.
I haven't articulated my feelings very well to be honest. I don't want to talk to him about it because I don't want to put him off and make him not go. This is his dream. He's been miserable in his current line of work for as long as I've known him and the dedication he's shown during this application process is amazing...
Not sure what I'm wanting from this I suppose. A chat with anyone doing anything similar? New friends to keep my occupied whilst he is away 😂