A handhold please - struggle with MH

[Theladyofthehouse]

I was not appointed after an interview for a job at place I volunteer.

I have a new job but I will have to move area, find a place to rent and don’t have any support close by.

My MH seemed to be bearing up until I found out I didn’t succeed due to poor interview. I didn’t ask for feedback and then asked for email, but she told me privately anyway. Now i have low thoughts even though I have been stable a long time. I thought I was mentally prepared now scared about new job and area as it has led to poor MH before.

I could cope when I thought there was just a better candidate, not sure how to deal with idea that I was best but messed up my future and mental health with a poor interview.

Bump

Very sorry to hear that OP
Remember that most of us would feel low after not succeeding at interview, so it doesn't mean that your MH has got worse. Be kind to yourself. Sometimes when things like this happen, we find out later that it wouldn't have been the right thing for us. I really hope things work out for you.

Sorry long post - hope writing helps as can’t speak IRL.
Back low again- I’m finishing off my volunteering, It been easier than I expected, though hard today as one person has begun the job I didn’t get.

What is upsetting me now is the other things - going to my gym, beautician etc for the last time. I’ve been exploring the new place. Now I have access to a big city 15 mins bus. It will be a one hour journey (not to where I will work, but city with nice shops/cafes). (Feeds into me hating myself/body because I can’t see properly to drive and have a useless brain with depression.)

Overwhelmed sorting out the place I’m buying up here, insurance, council tax and then the future rental.

Positive- have found a place to live, good public transport to town.