Would anyone else like to talk about what happened to them? *Trigger sexual assault, child abuse*

[Thisnamechanger]

In the wake of the MJ documentary...

Would anyone else who has never been able to voice it before like to have a safe space to let things out?

I'll go first.

My grandad.

Three much older sisters (neighbours ). I told my mother but the time they "took me off to play" was obviously very valuable to her. Looking back, I wonder what life must have been like for them in their big, filthy, stinky, over crowded home, to make them think up and do, the things they did to me.

And also....a male nurse in a hospital, as I recovered from surgery age 18.

My dad, my uncle, brother, cousin, neighbour. Several guys as a teenager. Feels like all in good for is sex

My ex husband, the father of my DS

1 boy at 16
1 married man at 17
3 boys from a party at18

My Grandad

My father I only found out recently from very bad flashbacks which I found is very common in your early 20s. I have never spoken to anyone but he was put on trail by many other girls then killed himself before the court date. My mum allowed all of this to happen and for some reason my sisters still live with her.

I'm so happy this thread exists. I have no one in real life who is even nice about this stuff. My mother told me never to speak of it, previous boyfriend didn't believe me and then my latest one said I was victim playing. And a friend at uni made a joke about it after I confined in him.

Ex boyfriend
Teacher
Boy who lived up the road

Step father.
I told my mother and she did not believe me. She is still with him.

My brother
My step brother
Group of boys at childminders
Group of lads from school

Took me a long to time to see it all for what it was. Especially the childminder incidents.

I always thought it must be me, for it to keep happening. Like I must have a sign above my head.

It's only from the me too movement and threads on mumsnet that I've come to realise it wasn't my fault.

angel:Friends older brother. I’ve told no one, until now

Well done. How do you feel? I've told people but never written it down due to paranoia at my family finding out. I nearly asked for the thread to be deleted but am managing the paranoia.

I told my mother and she did not believe me

Brutal. And people still ask the idiotic question "why didn't they say anything at the time"

NC. I've been lurking from the beginning. Keep typing out a post and then deleting as I feel a bit of fraud.

Some teen boys throughout secondary school, one in particular.
Another group of boys, outside of school.
A 26yo man and his friends, I was 15.

Also several other occasions as an adult, not just strangers.

Somehow I feel that I'm to blame and feel a huge sense of shame, the very few people who witnessed it and then gossiped have certainly viewed it that way. So I've kept it to myself. Never told anyone. Family have no idea.

My uncle.
An ex boyfriend.
Several men in their 30s when I was 15.

Posting that actually feels like I've finally released a huge breath that I've been holding in for ages.

I'm not sure this really is a safe place .

The son of my father's boss when I was 19. I couldn't tell anyone as my father wouldn't have believed me and mum would have but would also have kicked up such a fuss that dad would have been out of a job.

My ex-husband. Raped me anally. He never understood why it was a big deal. It was to me. Eventually, it was why I left.

An ex boyfriend raped me and another anally raped me. My uncle sexually assaulted me on many occasions and told me he'd deny it if I told anyone. When I was 15 I was groomed online by several different men who coerced me into having sex with them. It took therapy and almost 15 years to realise it wasn't my fault.

My ex. Never told anyone and now I have to co parent with him. I’ve left it too late now I have no proof

A neighbour across the road.
A boyfriend.
My ex husband.

I'm also a mother to children who were abused. The guilt I feel that it happened to them is all consuming.

Male babysitter. I was 6 years old and have kept this secret. Later, a "date-rape" situation at age 16.

I tried to tell a counsellor once. I had been seeing her for various problems and difficulties I was experiencing. It took a lot of courage to decide to tell her what had happened to me as a child. I was very hesitant in my descriptions, it was the first time I had ever said the words aloud and I kept saying that my memories were hazy so she cut me off and told me that if it really happened my memories would be clear so it was likely that I had probably seen something on TV and given myself a false memory. She was so pleased to have diagnosed me. I never bothered trying to speak up again.