Oh please help me find my motivation 😩

[MotivationSuchAnAggrivation]

In October last year I started Couch to 5k. By Christmas, I had lost over a stone. I was feeling so good. But then you know, Christmas happened. And it was cold. And icy. And work was stressful and busy.

And then I ran again in February and I couldn’t even do two miles 😩 (had been managing four before Christmas).

I’ve managed to keep that stone off. But I know next time I weigh myself I’ll be a pound or two heavier. I neeeeeeed to get back out there. I am a bridesmaid at a family wedding in April and I want to lose another few pounds before it.

Finished work tonight and determined I was going running. Nope. Got the kids to sleep. Had a quickie with my husband (rare these days) and now I’m in my PJs and he has been dispatched for McDonalds.

The self loathing is terrible tonight.

Mitigating factors: stressful job and two under-5s that don’t sleep through the night.

Tomorrow is a new day, self loathing won't get you anywhere (I should know!). Be kind to yourself "today I am having a mcdonalds and tomorrow I will run for X number of minutes".
I've never been able to get straight back to where I left off running wise if I've had a break, but even getting slowly back into it, the speed of improvement is noticeable.

Every day I make a promise to myself that tomorrow will be the day.

I am evangelical about couch to 5k. It has been amazing for me. I know the vast improvements that running makes to my life (I’m very new to exercise ) and yet I can’t seem to get my arse in gear.