Inn struggling and don't know what to do

[BuggyWanker]

DH works 8-5 and I'm at home with the kids Monday to Friday. I work Saturday and Sunday mornings. Dc are 3 and 1 and dc 1 goes to preschool 15 hours per week. Since Christmas dc2 has gotten so much more demanding my 15 hours doesn't feel like a break any more.

I am constantly chasing my tail with chores, snacks, meals, trying to get dc2 to nap , cleaning up toys etc.

DH started a new business recently and asked me to do he paperwork for it. I like doing it, it gives me something to do that's not to do with the the dc and makes me feel useful but it takes an evening a week.

Our house is a mess - damp, cold, desperately in need of renovation and redecoration.

Money is very tight - DH won't earn anything for a year (but then we'll be doing quite well financially).

The drudgery of being on my own with the dc during he week is getting to me big time. Dc2 will be going to nursery a couple of mornings a week after Easter but until then I am going crazy.

I quit vaping a few weeks ago but started again this morning. This morning the dc have done nothing but watch telly while I have cried. I've been getting insomnia thinking about everything and only got about 4 hours sleep last night. I need to change things but don't know where to start.

Sorry to hear you are feeling so sad right now. Didn't want to read and run ☕💐

Things will get better, they really will.
Small children are such hard work, but they actually do grow
The days feel like years, but when you look back, the years feel like days!
We all have days where we feel overwhelmed, it’s ok that they have telly days, nothing bad will happen.
I feel for you, have you got any real life support?

Thanks you for replying. My kids are so lovely and I love doing activities etc with them - I just feel so overwhelmed with chores, tiredness and clearing up after them I feel like I don't get the chance to spend quality time with them - even when we're home together all day- it's relentless!

It is you are right. Do the minimum you can to keep you sane, you will never look back and wish you had done more housework.
It’s hard to enjoy your children when you are tired, but they don’t need spangled days out, just being with you is enough. If you can get a bit of time to yourself, take it.