To just want to give up on my life, for being a fail, for being a nobody and a loser and just hating myself for not being normal.

[DannyDo]

Im 37 and I have nothing to show for it. Im embarrassed of myself, ashamed. Shit jobs, no skills, not good at anything. No interests, no life. I just really really hate myself andy life. Sometime I wish I wasn't born.

You don’t have to have skills in order to be a valuable person, OP.
You are a unique human and loved by God.
You are part of the tapestry of life and have every right to walk this planet and enjoy your life.
You sound to be suffering from depression- I’d recommend seeing your GP to discuss this and access some treatment.
Once you are feeling more upbeat, have a think about what activities you might like to try. You don’t have to be any good at them, simply enjoy having a go at them. Plenty of off key singers enjoy warbling in karaoke bars, lots of hopeless footballers enjoy a kickabout in the park. Very few of us will ever win prizes or medals for anything, but we can still have fun.
Try to look at yourself more positively - be kind to yourself, praise yourself for anything you manage to do, even if it isn’t something world shattering. And also look beyond yourself- maybe volunteer to help those worse off than you, which will make you feel wanted and give you a nice glow of achievement.
Have a hug, see your GP and I hope you soon find life becoming happier.

Hey dont feel bad - everyone has these dark days. Tomorrow you can start anew.

(((hugs)))

I don't mean this to sound patronising, so please don't take it like that, but you have to count your blessings.
Is your general health good? No serious problems? Tick.
You say shit job, so you've obviously got a job, not on this horrendous UC? Tick.
A roof over your head? Yes? Tick.
All this glorious sunshine? Tick.
You might need to see your doc - you sound depressed.
Maybe get a pet?
Maybe do some volunteering?
I hope things improve for you, OP. Please don't give up!

It's the depression talking. Get an appointment with your GP.