Hello all. Sorry if this is long but I don’t want to be accused of dripfeeding.
When I moved over here to England seven years ago I started the job that I am in now. I instantly hit it off with a group of girls and we regularly went on nights out together. One girl I hit it off with more than the others and in a way there’s always been something between us. On nights out in the past we have got very flirty though nothing physical had ever happened. At work we are chatty but hardly what you would call best friends as we are now in different departments.
Since this all started we have both married our DPs and I have had two children. On the odd occasion I do go out know the chemistry is still there and sometimes we do slip back into our old way.
In all honestly and rather stupidly I thought no one else had noticed what was going on. However on Saturday night one of the other girls pulled me aside and said to me “How would you feel if you saw your DP acting like that with someone else?” I felt like my whole world was crashing down and like I’ve been drowning in shame ever since. Me and DH are meant to be going on a night out with them all in a few weeks time but I’m dreading it. I feel so guilty and ashamed. I should stop seeing her all together but all my work friends are in that group. Sorry my heads a mess and I don’t want to hurt DH