BPD and Pregnant.

[lotusFlowerValley]

I really hope to find someone to talk. Am struggling 10 years with metal issues and now that i am 32 weeks pregnant i got from my Psych the true Diagnose. Am without stabiliser through the whole pregnancy and in 2 or 3 weeks am gonna have c-cection. If anyone here had a similar experience i would be so thankful for company and understanding the special difficulties of this situation.

Sounds like you’ve done well to get this far. I’m glad you have a psychiatrist to support you. I don’t have BPD, but I know it can be really tricky to live with. I would recommend taking up any support offered from perinatal mental health team, or specialist health visitor - accepting help is a sign of strength not weakness.

Hopefully someone with more personal experience will be along soon, but I didn’t want to read and run.

Thank you Karine for your response. I was very scared since day one of late period. With my husband i was honest from the start of the relationship. I was on medication for general anxiety disorder, i had so many relapses with depression, i was aware of the dangerous side effects on the fetus. It was a hard pregnancy, physical and emotonial. The most hard part began from the 28th week when they told me that my baby might be UGRI. I dont have OB near me, i have to travel 3 hours and spend the whole day in the hospital until i get answers. I dont have a support group ( psychotherapy group ) my husband is a good person deep inside but he cant understand my mental state and even if i tried so much to make him understand serious thingns about the pregnancy the baby and my condition was not paying attention. Am trying so hard not to give up until the birth. Am already "prepared" about the post partum depression i will experience but the most serious concern is about my baby. Am praying every day that he will survive after birth. * am so sorry for my grammar mistakes but am not from UK and my english skills got rusted. My suicidal ideation got back but am thinking that its just a symptom, that my brain thinks that suicide is the only solution to my problems. The bright side of my current state is that i am so stubborn to give up. Am feeling total responsible to cope with everything until birth. I have absolutely no idea how am gonna cope with all these new challenges but am hoping that maybe getting back on track of good medication and hopefully with a healthy maternal instict am gonna make it. Am wishing every mom around the world to have help health and support.

Please try to stay positive & not let the suicidal thoughts take over.

Do you have a community mental health team to support you? Or a GP? Tell them how you've been feeling.

Mental health issues are honestly one of the hardest things to deal with, I suffer from PTSD and depression as result of abuse at a young age and all I can say is it will get better! Sending all my love x