How can I stop hiding?

[Hidingfromeverything]

A few years ago I was the victim of an aggravated burglary, I wasn't badly hurt but it was absolutely terrifying. I did have some PTSD symptoms and some treatment afterwards and feel I'm mostly ok now, except for one thing. I can't answer my door if I'm in on my own and not expecting anyone, to the extent where I literally hide

I feel utterly pathetic but can't seem to help it, I instinctively duck away from the window and scutttle off to a room where I can't be seen, then I stand there frozen until they've gone away.

I know it's not so unusual (on MN at least!) to not answer to unexpected callers but I feel like a complete weirdo because I react so strongly, it's not normal is it? It feels OTT to say I'm still suffering from PTSD because it's only this situation that provokes that response now and it doesn't happen that often but I just want to stop freaking out because the bloody doorbell rings!

OP you are clearly still suffering from PTSD!! And it's no wonder - aggravated burglary! Bloody hell!

Have you tried EMDR? Something to do with remapping your brain.. But also give yourself a break - I can imagine few things scarier than what you've been through.. Home is supposed to = safety..

Blimey OP I would say in your circumstances I think it’s completely understandable. Really sorry that happened to you, I imagine it was terrifying.

I don’t answer my door sometimes, if I’m not expecting anyone and it’s late when nobody else is up or they’re all out. I don’t really care if it’s not normal or not, it’s just my way of feeling comfortable.

If you want get passed this could you maybe start asking who it is from behind the locked door?

Definitely try EMDR. Exposure therapy can also be helpful for PTSD.

On a practical level, perhaps you could get a video doorbell that connects to your phone, like Ring? Then you can see who it is and speak to them (or chose to ignore them) without needing to answer the door.