Hi everyone, I've had an eating disorder since I was 13- over 7 years now. The past few years it's been primarily binge eating problems and I've gained over a stone in weight this last month as i've binged every day.
I just can't ever shake feeling guilty, even if I've had a healthy meal. I use the guilt as an excuse to binge which I know is really bad.
Currently cooking 5 bread rolls in the oven to munch on with some butter because I've felt like a failure today.
I sleep all day sometimes because I just can't face looking at myself and my body, I recently visited a psychiatrist (recommended by my GP) and he's said medication won't help me and it's primarily something that could be treated by CBT, the only issue is, the CBT isn't available for at least 3 months!
Does anyone have any ideas on how I can form a healthy relationship with food in the meantime? I'm really bad for not eating 3 meals a day, partly due to laziness and wanting to sleep, and partly because I can't face eating that often- but will then binge all evening!
I'm so stuck, it feels awful honestly.
I cried all evening last night and ended up falling asleep sobbing.
Has anyone else managed to create a healthy relationship with food? Literally any advice would be greatly appreciated.