Gel angry a lot of the time - don't want to

[Peepingsnowdrops]

I am a calm and good person (I think and I hope) so people wouldn't know this but I get so angry I cry in rage (on my own). I hate it.

I feel used a bit (at work I get taken advantage of but I have stood up for myself and that's helping). Dh is quiet and passive and irritates me a lot. He is finally doing his share in the house- though he works long hours but I do all the stuff with dc cleaning and grocery shopping and cooking. I feel like I have to get angry in order to sort things.

We had a family party last weekend (his side) and I was left on my own with all the kids while they all sat at the other table. I cried so much. It was a mistake. One of the relatives sat by me to chat but dh didn't realise and went to sit with his mother.

All fine- I try and get over it. But I am not going to the family wedding next month. I don't cook during the week for him. Only now he is starting to respect me a little. He isn't bad but I need to control my emotions for me.

Why not going to family wedding? Have you said you’re no longer going? Or weren’t you invited?

Childcar is is an issue (but we can sort) its cousin he hardly sees. I am not going because of this. I sat for two hours last weekend on my own and no one offered to swap seats or anything. I am just standing up for myself. Held it all in too long.

I have to say, it’s post ooze martydom

Its should read both