I am a calm and good person (I think and I hope) so people wouldn't know this but I get so angry I cry in rage (on my own). I hate it.
I feel used a bit (at work I get taken advantage of but I have stood up for myself and that's helping). Dh is quiet and passive and irritates me a lot. He is finally doing his share in the house- though he works long hours but I do all the stuff with dc cleaning and grocery shopping and cooking. I feel like I have to get angry in order to sort things.
We had a family party last weekend (his side) and I was left on my own with all the kids while they all sat at the other table. I cried so much. It was a mistake. One of the relatives sat by me to chat but dh didn't realise and went to sit with his mother.
All fine- I try and get over it. But I am not going to the family wedding next month. I don't cook during the week for him. Only now he is starting to respect me a little. He isn't bad but I need to control my emotions for me.