I'm overdue by about 12 months, have massive anxiety around medical appointments and particularly smears after a really horrendous experience with a practice nurse at my old surgery. They've closed my local FPC which was the only place I felt comfortable going and the swish new sexual health centre doesn't do smears.
Have been trying to book with nurse at GP's for months, can't seem to tie up my cycle with her availability and they won't book more than a few weeks in advance so every time I try she's already booked solid. Have found a place fairly locally offering private smears for £110, we're not well off by any means but could scrape the money together if we tried and they do Saturday appointments so DH could take me (he's away mon-fri) which would decrease my anxiety considerably.
But it feels a bit, I don't know, self indulgent (?) to spend money on something that only benefits me and I could technically get for free. But then I'm worried that it's overdue and I don't seem to be getting anywhere with GP so it's getting more overdue. I'm going round in circles with it and can't seem to make a decision so some outside opinions would be great.