Just need somewhere to talk

[Proudteachermummy]

Hi,

I posted the other day about my father in laws funeral. Well we had it yesterday, it was a beautiful send off. I managed my reading and so did our DC, I was a very proud. This evening I just feel so emotional and exhausted. The last 3 weeks have been very tough as DH has been really struggling and so have the DCs. DH and I were with FIL when he died and have been the ones planning and organising the funeral. I shouldered alot of the organising as DH has been struggling.

Now it's all over I feel so emotional, but trying to hold it altogether. I've known and had FIL in my life longer than my own father who died when I was a child BUT I don't feel I HAVE the right to mourn/grieve as DH needs me supporting him. Even at the funeral because DH needed me and our DCs I didn't really cry.

Right now I just want to cry but I can't let go, I don't want to add to DH emotions.

Sorry for going on, just wanted to get it off my chest

I get it, and I understand. Its hard. I don't really have any advice as people grieve differently. It's always a shock to the system after the funeral because that was your focus getting through it. And now it's like trying to find the new normal without them in it.
Sorry I couldn't give any words of wisdom but I am sorry for you and your families loss.

Hello, so sorry for your loss. Why don't you post on the Bereavement thread, you will get a lot of support on there. Hugs.