Hi
Looking for words of wisdom to coping methods when something goes wrong in your life massively but on a normal level, your mental health is fine.
I've had a horrible shock in the last few days and have self medicated with wine which took the edge off but cannot be a long term plan.
Yesterday was the first day since Friday that I didn't have a drink (wasn't really hungover) and I felt shit and that the problems I'm facing are too much.
The problem I have is a DH one and if I LTB then eventually, I guess the sadness would go. But deep down I want to see this through for the kids. I'd rather not go into details as it just psyches me up even more and doesn't really help.
In the meantime, how can I stay calm?
I don't want to be dead inside. I have things to do. I exercised today even though my heart wasn't in it. I'm looking quite nice at the moment body and face wise and am taking care of myself with eating properly and really healthily as always. I go the other way to comfort eating, when I feel shit, I want to make myself look nicer which is probably a deeper response to how H has treated me and how I want to fight back.
Ideally, anti depressants aren't the answer for me. Feels like it'd be a false mask and I may find trouble coming off them.
Anyone tried cannabidiol? Would that help, do you think?
Clearly the answer is to address my problems. I will do in the end. I'm not being physically abused but there is a horrible level of deceit that has happened in my marriage that I thought had gone away but hadn't at all and has made a mockery of what I thought was a steady and loving relationship.
Thanks