Starting to wonder if I have PND

[amijustcrackers]

Can't sleep as dd woke up for a feed and I cant stop thinking.
I have looked at the nhs website and I feel like I can relate to some of the symptoms.

In everyday life I'm ok but still feel very fed up I am tired all the time soon as I wake up the tiredness hits me I get really good sleep so I know it's not due to that.

I feel like a crap mum because I'm so tired I don't feel like I'm giving my kids the life they deserve. I'd love them to have a nice tidy home but no everything is out of place. It's mainly clothes being everywhere I've gotten so messy and just don't care anymore DS room has been messy for days and I haven't even picked it up I just step over everything.

I hate taking DS to nursery I've convinced myself the nursery manager hates me because I'm a young mum but then I could be right. The overthinking is killing me I'm constantly overthinking my OH is constantly telling me of for it.

I'm overweight not massively I can loose the weight but feel like I need to feel right in my mind. I don't have a miserable life I have nice things we have a holiday to Jamaica booked in June but honestly I couldn't give a crap about it all.

OH thinks I'm lazy but I'm not I just don't really care. I'm always saying I can't cope so we have a night of from the kids but then I'm back up early to go pick them up it doesn't even feel like a break. I'm not sure what kind of break I need. I'm ALWAYS in pyjamas don't get dressed unless going out.

When OH comes back from work he's not really that hands on as he says the kids are my job. So when he comes back from work he wants to relax.

I don't know what I'm looking for here I just feel as I need some help I'm not sure if it's post natal depression or not. Forgot to mention I have DS who is 2 and DD 4 months.

That's a lot of strain for anyone. You don't sound lazy, just exhausted. See your go, but try setting yourself tiny goals. I have fibromyalgia and EDS, the combination of the conditions and medication make me exhausted. Wear comfortable clothes that you can substitute for pyjamas if that helps, it works for me. You sound sad and isolated, do you have any family who might be willing to help? Taking the first step towards support is a real sign of strength, remember that when you feel rubbish

I'm the exact same (apart from the young mum and my OH sounds alot more supportive)

It's hard to get yourself going but as the pp said it's best to set yourself small goals. Also the exchanging the jammies for comfy clothes is a great idea - just a pair of joggy bottoms and a top or even some active wear could spur you on to tackle one room at a time in the house. I find I feel alot better if I've gotten dressed before 10am. Granted my house is still a mess and I have a heap of un ironed clothes on my dinning table, but that's my goal for today. Get it cleared.

Coffee is key. Make sure you get a cup in the morning.

Also don't pay any mind about the nursery manager, she's probably just a bit miserable with everyone.