I don't know where to start with this. I met my partner in Sept. 2015 his ex is an alcoholic who has never really accepted they are no longer together. She used the children then aged 3 and 10 as weapons against my OH often not giving him access and constantly causing disruption and upset. She was often so drunk that the children began to show signs of neglect and eventually it was recognised by the authorities that she was unfit. The oldest child was 12 when he decided he wanted to live with us permanently and just before Christmas 2017 the 5 year old girl was placed in our care. In Sept. 2018 we went to court to formalised the arrangement (I paid £4500.00 to enable this on the understanding it would be paid back). My OH has always been difficult, controlling, egotistical and misogynistic but I put this down to previous difficulties and anxiety. However I have now reached the end of my tether. I am 48 years old thrown into a role I am neither good at or enjoy. They all live in my house virtually rent free (he pays me £250 A month housekeeping) I work full time, from home, which they all seem to think counts for nothing I have no life, no friends, no social life. He drinks heavily and leaves me with the children a lot of the time, he spends his evenings asleep on the sofa and is in bed by 8pm. He takes the dog out more than me, i cant remember the last time i had a conversation with a grown up. I am desperate for them all to leave but how can i live with the guilt of what it will do to those kids. They have had so much to deal with already in their short lives i am the only stable thing they have but we are all miserable. I don't think I've explained any of this very well but there's just too much to say. Has anyone else had a similar experience?