I went to bed last night after falling asleep at 11.30. woke up after hearing next doors fireworks, kids sleepily acknowledged then took them to bed. DH didn't speak to me other than ask me to put the cat downstairs. Woke up and was awake from two, crying to myself.
Backdrop is have had a horrible, horrible year. Had health worries - nothing too serious but permanent negative effects/permanent medication. After having an amazing career that I enjoyed, things have been horrendous and am facing a tribunal. I've never know stress like it. I have put on three stone, had significant hairloss and had episodes of severe depression. My relationship with DH has been pushed to breaking point.
I want to sort myself out, for me, DH and DC. I want me to be happy and to make them happy.
I don't want to swing between suicidal thoughts then guilt for having them as I love my children so much.
This maybe the wrong place to post but I guess this is a cry for help, to help me save myself and my family. Any tips big or small to get my confidence back, my sense of self worth and my happiness back would be much appreciated.
Ps starting SW today and dry January so that's a good thing right?
Also Happy New Year. Was meant to sound hopeful not depressive!