Having dreams of me being violent towards my mum

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My mum has been emotionally abusive to me my whole life. I cut contact with her, which has resulted in me losing contact with my dad.

This has all been hard to come to terms with.

Anyway, I've recently been having dreams that my mum is treating me badly and in the dreams, I'm trying to hit her/hurt her. I'm waking up from these dreams in the middle of the night unable to get back to sleep. It's exhausting. And I'm feeling guilty about it. Ive never been a violent person IRL so this is out of character for me.

Am I a terrible person?

No absolutely not, I have absolutely no idea what dreams mean but yours is pretty obvious and I'm surprised you it think about hitting do mine who has been abusive towards you in your dreams.

If it's bothering you perhaps you could see someone to try and make the dreams stop but your unconscious mind is just playing out your fears.

*surprised you only think about hitting someone who has been abusive towards you in your dreams.

It's so weird because I'm trying to hit her but I have no strength, almost like my arms feel heavy and I'm trying really hard but don't have any power.

I'm not sure if the having no strength thing is to do with the fact I'm asleep (if that makes sense).

I am not a dream analyser at all, but this is my interpretation....

You want to keep up the “fight” with your mum but are just exhausted and completely worn down and have nothing to give anymore.

Maybe you just want to give up, so you can see your dad again?

You aren't a terrible person at all.

Your mind is acting out your emotions from a horrible and sad situation, that's all. Hopefully it'll wear off over time.

And. No you’re not a terrible person. It’s a dream. You can’t control them, and if you can. I’d be completely horrified by the people I have had sex with in my dreams !!!

Sounds to me like you feel powerless to stand up for yourself and that the only way you had for fighting back was to go no contact. I think its just your subconscious letting go of strong emotions that you have felt during your relationship. Try to just accept the dreams and not read too much into them. Breath slowly in and out when you wake and tell yourself you are ok and safe.

I think the no strength is probably more to do with you feeling as though you have no power against your mother? That would be my guess anyway.