I know this is a first world problem and lots of people out there have had much worse christmases than me. However, I’m feeling really annoyed at the world right now and I’m fed up with things going wrong.
In RL my friends would all freely acknowledge that I am extremely unlucky in general, so this is not out of character for life to throw at me but it doesn’t make me any more philosophical about it.
I’ve been ill for 3 months with a hideous vomiting bug that I was hospitalised for 10 days for and have had loads of tests (some rather painful) but while they have proved that there is something systemically wrong, the docs cant figure out what it is. I am on anti nausea pills, one of which I seem to be allergic to, but stopping the pills didn’t make the reaction go away it just made me sick again. On Christmas Eve DH woke up with a cold. By Christmas Day it had developed into the worst cold ever, and I also had it. I’ve had a temp of 39.5 for the last three days and was unable to eat Christmas lunch (which we had to postpone until yesterday because he didn’t have the energy to cook on Xmas day either.)
The DDs coped remarkably well with the altered Christmas arrangements but it’s been a shit year as we had problems at work as well and it looked like things were looking up, so we just wanted to enjoy a lovely quiet Christmas and look forward to next year being better.
And now I feel robbed and annoyed.
Is it ok if I just feel sorry for myself for a bit and then tuck into the Christmas biscuits and chocolate with a cheeky glass of wine when I feel less like growling at the world? 