Sorry for the long rant! I'm just releasing!
It's DS' second Christmas; he's 18mo and I just feel really flat about it. Can't get myself in the mood at all which is making me feel even more guilty. Everyone is looking at me like it should be so magical and i just feel shit.
I work full time and finished on Friday. Weekend was unexpectedly fairly hectic as DH hadn't bothered doing any washing or food shopping despite being off and child free on Friday.
Sunday I learned that someone I wasn't planning on buying for had bought for me so that was another last minute shopping trip.
DS a bit unwell so quite whingey and bad tempered. Tried to have a stay at home lazy day today to recharge for tomorrow but I've ended up just feeling cooped up and lethargic. He's cried when we tried to do the mince pie for Santa, as he couldn't understand why he couldn't eat the mince pie.
I feel now like i just want to watch some feel-good Christmas specials and try and feel like it's Christmas but I know DH hates that sort of thing.
Tomorrow is set to be another long day visiting both sides of the family and if DS is no better he will be hard work. Both sets of GPs interfere with him too much and get him up again if he doesn't fall asleep immediately for his nap, so he's liable to end up overtired in the afternoon as well.
I'm normally a big Christmas fan but i just don't feel it this year.