I'm highly emotional (my period should here any minute now!) Have been TTC for the past five months, one chemical and that's it. Could be my thyroid, need to wait if that's the culprit. I can't think about anything else , I actually see lines where there's obviously nothing. DP says wellaybe we should take a break and if we can't have our own children, well there's always our children from orevy relationships. I woke up crying because I've never been the centre of the universe to my DD, her granny is. I remember my mum was everything to me, never understand why it can't be that way for her. All crafty things they do at school are for granny and pops, never me. DP asked me why I wanted a baby and apart from the obvious reasons I want to have a child to whom I'm everything. No real job (although very promising interview on Thursday). I adore my DP he loves me back. I have no real, close friends. I know that I'll get zero cards this season. Thanks for reading I'm just having a very, very shitty day.