I seem to be numb to a lot of things.
I can't explain it. For example, my DF's father is ill and has had a DNR put in place. I feel nothing. Like I've read it in a book and it's just the way it is.
My grandmother died when I was 19. It shook my world - my first death and I was very close to her. Now - 13 years later - I often think about her but rarely with feeling. I sometimes think I imagined she ever existed.
I felt huge emotion when my colleague died last year and still think of him daily and at times get upset.
I have gone none contact with family and think nothing of it - no emotion about it, even when informed my GM had died.
What is this?!