Basically I had about 30h with one instructor, and while it was mostly going well - I've been enjoying driving, getting confident, driving on the disk carriageway etc - the instructor would got annoyed and impatient with me when I made mistakes so I decided to try someone else.
Today I tried that someone else and it was ten times worse! I was berated from the moment I entered the car, through every step of the cockpit drill, and if I didn't understand the instruction, it was repeated back to me as if I was stupid and even louder. Turns out I've learnt some key things incorrectly so after 30h I need to unlearn them now. I started freezing up and I feel like I've lost all the confidence I'd built up over the last few months in 2h.
I've felt so depressed all day. I guess I'm not used to being shouted at. I'm trying to look for another instructor but my heart's not in it. I can't seem to crack a smile at my toddler and I'm struggling to handle him when he's being his usual mischievous, difficult, food throwing self. DH is trying to keep things going but he's going out now and I have to put DS to bed on my own.
Please help pull me out of this funk. 😥