I’ve never felt like this before , mental health nurse is wondering if it’s some sort of bad reaction to fluoxetine that I started in September . I am constantly terrified , not sleeping until 3am and not feeling at all rested when I do sleep - waking up every couple of hours .
I’m permanently on edge and always have this horrible sense of foreboding that I or someone I love is in imminent danger . I can’t leave the house anymore as I feel I’m tempting fate by doing so , eg the one time I leave the house and relax, that’ll be when something goes wrong . I see things as like signs that something is wrong , if an ambulance passes , if I have palpitations , if I hear certain things on TV . I have lots of rituals in my head and patterns of doing things , I always end phone conversations exactly the right way and right tone of voice etc . It’s a nightmare .
My GP knows I’m anxious but not all of it . In fact not even half of it . Gave me diazepam three weeks ago to try and calm me down as I couldn’t stop moving/shaking .
I don’t know what to do anymore . I’m scared I’m going to end up in hospital or something and don’t want that , I just want to be me again .