Hey guys, just so you know I have been here before just name changed. I don't know what is going wrong with my stupid brain at the moment it seems like it it a fight with me..yes I know I sound mad!
I'm finding everything so hard at the moment, I have no money what so ever, trying to find a job and keep getting rejected ( I thought this was the best time to look because of Christmas staff! ) And like I say up there my brain seems to be in a war with myself making me feel worthless and I'm hurting everyone around me, and blaming myself for everything going wrong. Then last week my partner and me had a bit of a fight and I started crying ( there wasn't even anything to cry at ) but then It was like I couldn't stop but after a while had to force myself because it was getting to a panic stage..partner ended up being so worried asking what was wrong but I couldn't talk so he left it. But all this week I just feel like I have been putting on a front and really want to hide in bed and just cry and sleep ( which I haven't done for three nights )
I'm sorry guys for the rant I just really needed to get it of my chest, I'm thinking and worrying about so much I feel like my head might explode!