I feel stupid writing this but figure I can't be the only person to feel like this? I feel so ugly. I basically always have done although there have been periods where I've felt relatively ok about the way I look. I don't even like the word 'ugly' because I have literally never looked at someone and thought they were 'ugly', so I don't have any meaning for that word, other than the way I look myself. I don't know where it's come from, because other than being a teased a bit in primary school for my 'moustache', nobody has ever commented on the way I look in a negative way - I went to an all-girls high school where I was bullied mercilessly for years, but thinking about it, I can't think of a single incident where anyone mentioned the way I looked! I also don't come from a family where looks are prided on really, my dad always told me (and still does! 
) that I look beautiful, but I was never encouraged to do anything to take care of my appearance other than basic hygiene. I am married, we are mid-twenties and met and instantly became a couple in our late teens, and DH assures me constantly that he thinks I'm beautiful etc and he genuinely doesn't even notice most of the time if I put some makeup on, or if I get threaded (I get my whole face done every month or so cos I am really hairy, cos of my heritage). Yet still I obsess over it!
I look in the mirror now and again when I get a chance and cry and cry. I try to avoid doing it cos I get so upset. I don't have time to keep on top of my hair removal, I don't have time to put makeup on, I can't wear impractical-but-nice-looking outfits, I barely have time to wash and dry my hair as I have a very needy, cry-y 5 month old. I am taking her to a baby group shortly and I feel so anxious that everyone will be staring at my horrible dandruff which I've only just noticed (I have eczema and the winter weather sets it off), my returning acne (that I've battled since I was in my early teens), my hairy face etc...I just want to go to bed and cry and feel sorry for myself, not go outside so other people can see me, but I can't because I have DD.
What can I do to make myself stop feeling this way? I do feel better if I can keep on top of hair removal, wear a bit of makeup etc but I genuinely do not have the time at the moment! 
And DH and I are both worried about my self-loathing rubbing off on DD as she gets older too .