I’m not really sure what I want from this post but I just need to let it out.
I was let go from my job recently, went for an interview and accepted a new job offer whilst in a panic about being unemployed. This all happened in a short space of time.
Since having time to think about it, I am absolutely dreading starting there. For various reasons, what the job is, the shifts (I care for a relative this will leave almost zero time for that), there’s no silver lining in the way of moving up/sideways or changing hours later on down the line.
The shifts will also leave very little time to go for interviews elsewhere. Not to sound too melodramatic, but it seems there will be no way out for a while.
I’m due to start there shortly, but I’ve been invited for a couple of interviews elsewhere during my first week in the new job (one being on the first day!). I’ve also applied for several other jobs which have closing dates end of the month or beginning of Dec which would be better for me and I am suitable/qualified for.
I’m not necessarily expecting interviews, but even if I get them, I’ve no hope in getting any time off, before Christmas atleast. I’ll certainly not be in a position to make any demands as a new starter either.
My dp has said to just not go to this job, but I’m terrified of not having a job at al! We’d be ok until Xmas, maybe longer with some frugal living (not that we’re big spenders anyway). I’m still worried as we’re not prepared for any emergencies, if we were to be living on one salary (for example it’s an old house, if we need repairs) but regular bills would be covered.
Also, my dp has been dropped in it at work recently by a colleague and will be doing 2 people’s jobs for a few months so I feel extremely guilty at the prospect of allowing him to be the sole earner. He is supportive regardless and agrees that this job would in some ways be more of a burden than a benefit.
My confidence has also been knocked a little as I went for another interview last week, a job that I was perfect for. They even said my CV pretty much covered everything they were after. I didn’t get that job, so I’m now catastrophising and thinking what if I withdraw from the new job (the interview for that one was pretty much show up and state your name) and can’t get another.
I just don’t know what to do! I need to choose the risk of being unemployed, or the risk of being happier in a job by being stuck in a new role which I don’t want/can’t handle.
We’ve had a proper shit year this year, we’ve hit a brick wall with a lot of things, my MH has taken a big hit recently so I am really struggling to see clearly.
(I’ve nc’d, not sure why really, depending on how the thread goes it could become identifying)
If you’re read this far, thanks and sorry for the ramble and not knowing what I want from you!