This moring I was in town running a few errands, minding my own business when I realised that myself and an old friend were on a collision course towards each other. This is someone I was close to when I was in my teens and early 20's. I helped her escape from an abusive relationship and helped her get set up in her own flat. A few years after that I went through a hard time with depression due to very difficult family circumstances and she effectively cut me out of her life because I was being a drag and wasn't fitting into her new life.
I found it ver painful at the time and really beat myself up over it for a long time, about how defective and rubbish I must be for her to cut me out like that. In time I could see she wasn't an especially nice person and she could be very envious and loved to feel she had one up on her friends.
Anyway, as I walked towards her not knowing what to do I decided just to say Hi, just hello. it wasn't an invitation to be best friends but just anknowledgement that we knew each other and I thought we could say "hi how are you, hope your well and bye thats it" As we got close to each other I said hello and she looked at me, then turned her head away, nose in the air and just walked right by me like I didn't exist!
It was pretty awful really, I couldn't believe anyone could be so ignorant and unkind. I still feel like crying when I think about it and just wanted to write it out and get it off my chest. Is this sort of thing acceptable nowadays has it ever happened to anyone else so blatently?
Just feel so crap now in the immediate aftermath :(