Please can some kind person tell me there is nothing wrong with masturbation and make me believe it.
I am in my early 60's, happily married and still have a good sex life with DH in the main. But he has had surgery for prostate cancer and although he was very lucky and hasn't ended up with erectile dysfunction or incontinence, he does find it difficult from time to time to reach orgasm, and has also developed Peyronie's disease which can also make intercourse a challenge.
Because of this, I sometimes don't have an orgasm because I don't want him to hold back for me and risk not being able to climax himself - he isn't selfish in anyway and will happily use his hands to satisfy me, but he has been through so much and I don't want him to know quite how often this is needed (approx 50% of the time).
I have masturbated occasionally but need to do so more often now and I am just not comfortable with it. I suspect it is linked to my mother always telling me to stop playing with myself if she saw me with my hands near my genitals, and I was always told that naked bodies were rude and other stuff like that. I don't have a good self image due to the non-parenting I received, I had zero sex education and even now my biological knowledge is sketchy, if I'm honest. I was also sexually abused by a family member, if that has any relevance at all.
Sorry that was longer than I intended and possibly includes too much information, but I would really appreciate some advice on how to feel better about myself. Thank you