It’s iust dawned on me how badly I’m clawing at myself. I don’t care if I make my fingers sore or if they bleed. I bite the skin around my nails and the cuticles. I can’t stabd having cuticles. I attack them with my nails and tweezers to get them off. If even the tiniest bit of cuticle is there I have to rush straight to the tweezers, I literally cannot think about anything else til I’ve sorted it out. Ditto if I find a spot or blocked pore while scanning over my face with my fingertips. I scan through my hair and my neck and my face for anything I can pick at constantly. If there is anything I can attack I can’t do anything else til I’ve done that first.
I think I may have an issue.
For info purposes I’ve got a long history of anxiety and depression and self harm. I’ve seperated myself off from my family who put me through hell as a child and it’s been dreadful to deal with. Sometimes I get these surges of anger and irritability about it all.
Please be gentle. What do I do? And I’m on anti anxiety and anti depressant meds already.