There's a guy at work who has broken my heart and for a while I tried to act normal and professional, but inwardly I was really down and my depression worsened. I've not felt like I could look at him least of all talk to him. So I've just avoided him, not said a word to each other for a month, and when he walks in the office I don't even acknowledge his presence. The other day we made accidental eye contact and I just looked away. I was feeling really low at the time. But to add to it, he started avoiding me. So we're in deadlock. He went to every desk and around me and made a point of speaking to every person except me.
I don't want this behaviour to continue. I know j started it but it came from a place of deep hurt rather than game playing whereas I am sure he is trying to make a statement/retaliate. But regardless of our reasons or who started it and being petty, I don't want this to continue, my mental health has been really bad and I had a bit of an epiphany that if we were at least able to let go and be civil again I might be able to let go of the hurt and anger inside me and move on. But I don't know how to go about this now without seeming like I am playing some sort of game.
I was just thinking when I am back on Monday morning I will make a point of saying hi to everyone with a smile and make eye contact with him as I say it. What do you think?