Had a drink after 7 years 😞

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I quit drinking because I was getting worried about my consumption & felt that I was dependant. I was tempted over the years but never had anything alcoholic. Then last week, DH made a slow cooker casserole & left the rest of the white wine on the side. I had a sip & it was foul ( cost about £3). But for some reason, I had a few more sips & ended up finishing the lot. And I hid the bottle, which is what I used to do when I was a drinker. That wouldn’t have been so bad but since then, I have bought 3 more bottles & drunk in secret 😞. It felt good at the time but afterwards I felt lousy & today I feel poorly but as if I’d be better if I drank more wine. Really really don’t want to go down that road again. Just need a handhold & to feel less guilty

I don't know what to say OP, other than please don't punish yourself about this, but do recognise this as a blip and take steps to get support to not make drinking a problem going forward.
Can you speak to your DP? Explain what has happened and get their support?

Can you tell your DH how you feel? He's possibly the best person to help support you through this. Don't beat yourself up, we're all only human.

I have no experience of alcohol issues so my comments might be all wrong but didn’t want to read this and not reply. It sounds like you need to try to see this as the end of you drinking again, not the start of you drinking again. You’ve stopped once very successfully, 7 years is amazing! You’ve tested whether you can go back to having a few sips, it seems you can’t and it makes you feel lousy. Trial over and done, you now know you need to stay off it. So you have stopped drinking again. As of this moment. Not you will stop again or you should stop again but you have already stopped (assuming you don’t currently have a glass of wine in your hand in which case pour it away!) - done. You can totally do this again

DrWhy that’s great. My last drink was on Friday night & I was really affected - surprised DH didn’t suspect anything! He did say a while back that if I started drinking again it could spell the end of our marriage because I really put him through it.

So you are a day and a half sober already. I think there are people out there still striving to get to that. Keep moving forwards now.
You know your DH best and you’ll need some some support I suspect so think about when you want to tell him and how much. Remember it happened, it’s over and you are starting a new count, better and longer than the last one. I won’t say good luck as I suspect it’s a lot more about determination than luck and I trust that you have that in spades!

I’m sorry you are feeling so bad about this OP. Perhaps it is time to put in place whatever techniques you used last time to help you stop? Perhaps the first step is to tell your husband this has happened and he can support you and help you not to drink again?

Don't be too hard on yourself.

Take one day a time.

Good luck.

Look on this as a lesson learned. You now know that you cannot drink again - because it leads back to all the old bad habits. You got sober, so you have the strategies in place to use. Put them back into practice. Attend meetings if that's worked for you before. Take the lesson on board and live a happy, sober life. Don't beat yourself up about it.

Thanks everyone. I have been feeling really “ off” all day & was so tempted to do what I used to do in my drinking days, which was to pop out for “ milk”. And I have to admit, when I drank the other day, I did love pouring the chilled wine into a crystal glass then savouring the first mouthful & that familiar warm glow. But it would not be worth it in the long run. It’s a slippery slope. I didn’t only drink wine but was into spirits as well. Loved my G & T’s, Southern Comfort & coke etc. Need to stay strong!