someone I love is about to die

[gunge]

Just alone in the house drinking wine while my kids sleep. It's an in law but I was very close to them. The sadness feels like physical pain.

It's weird isn't it thighofrelief, you go away then you feel this overwhelming urge to be there. I know my DH has felt that hugely. But you have to take a breath now and then. I'll admit because it's my mum in law perhaps it's not the same as your own parent. In the sense that it's a visceral need to be near like when you were a little child. I lost my own mum ypung. It's a different experience but when I visit her grave I still want to curl in a ball and cry like she will still reach out and hold me. I was only a child when she went with few memories.

I do hope you had/have a glass of wine gunge - think you need it ☺️
Try to get some sleep tonight although I know it'll be hard 

And, yes I just don't know where to be. Your DH is very lucky to have you holding the fort but tough for you not to get more contact.

Oh bless you gunge you were lucky to have each other. My MiL was a star too, and my job also was to man the homefront during her last days. It's so hard, when you really want to be there.

But remember that on your wedding day she 'gave' her son to you (in her heart) knowing that you would be everything to him that she wanted you to be. And if he needs you to be home, then she would say that that's where she wants you to be.

Yes, there are wonderful MiLs out there. And wonderful DiLs, too. I'm so sorry for your (impending) loss.

I always say that when i count my blessings i count my in laws twice. I was lucky to have decent parents but my in laws always thought that i was great. They cherished and valued each of their children and grandchildren equally. And made me a lovely husband. I found their deaths q tricky as you are not "cheif mourner" really.

Hope you get to see her today OP

Morning @gunge

Hope you managed some sleep and get to see her today

She sounds wonderful.
I hope you’ve managed some sleep xx