I am not at a good point with my mental health. Looking back, I’ve been struggling for at least the last year if not since my DS was born last year and it’s getting worse. I have good weeks but my DP has described me all all right or all sh**te. He’s had a pretty rubbish year with me like this too.
I feel down and binge eat constantly, despite hating the way I look and desperately trying to loose the 5 stone I’ve gained since having children. My self esteem is at an all time low and I feel like I’m drowning with life in general. I hate the bones of myself and cant understand why anyone would love me, never mind find me attractive. Ive broken tonight and DP thinks I need to see a Doctor. He’s right and I haven’t admitted to him that I keep having suicidal thoughts, although I know I could never bring myself to do it.
I saw a doctor a couple of months ago who prescribed anti-depressants but I couldn’t get on with them and hated not being in control.
Would I be silly to book an emergency appointment in the morning to see the doctor and tell him how I’ve been feeling?