This is an utterly pathetic post, I realise, but would anyone like to reassure me? or tell me what you did for your birthdays? I turn 30 in 5 weeks and I have no idea what to do in terms of celebrating it.
Let me also preface this by saying I have incredibly low self-esteem and am utterly convinced hardly anyone gives a shit about me or my birthday and am riddled with extreme anxiety most of the time too.
I don't want my birthday to be a non-event and would love to see all my friends and family for some sort of get together. My Mum and siblings have said they want to come and stay for the weekend, and so I was thinking maybe about hiring a village hall and having an afternoon tea party.
But! I don't want to organise a huge party and have no one turn up. I'm also about 98% sure that whatever happens I'll have some sort of anxiety attack over it anyway, and 5 weeks notice for a party seems short when our families live all over the country and would mean travelling up to two hours to get here for a party. I also don't think they care enough to come either, seeing as another cousin is having his 30th birthday six days before hand.
My grandparents have suggested I go to their house for a family sunday lunch, but I don't particularly want to travel on my birthday (which makes me feel unreasonable for asking them to travel... but I don't think they will anyway) My friends have all suggested a series of dinners with various groups too, which would extend my birthday over several weeks but is a logistical nightmare.
I'm a bit fed up. Can you tell?