I'll probably drip feed as I think of things so apologies.
I'm a single mum, five years after leaving a ten year abusive marriage. I had a vicious court case and still have to force one child to attend, and face the behaviour that goes with that.
My family disowned me long ago after the most ridiculous row that I put on here in a different name, that you all agreed was ridiculous.
My best friend is depressed following a sexual assault and I support her and basically run her household.
I lost my job earlier in the year under very unfair and pretty much illegal circumstances that I can't afford to fight. I've now got a new job which I love but the old job has reported what I supposedly did and got sacked for to my new job and I have to have a hearing there now.
My other friends have big houses and happy married lives.
I just feel like a failure. I want to stop fighting. I keep making plans to hurt myself. I don't know what to do anymore.