I have been diagnosed as anorexic since my teens and am now approaching 50. I'm exhausted by the hold it has had on my life, and I'm desperate to recover.
At the moment I'm eating two good meals (for me) a day, but I eat alone and still can't cope eating with other people beyond a coffee or tea. I'm 5ft 6 and weigh 57kg. The thought of being any heavier makes me panic, and if I'm honest, I'd like to lose a couple of kg, but I don't want to lose control. I'm battling with my perceptions, iand have no clear idea of the reality of how I look. For eg, I can see in this pic of me that I look thin, but I consider my thighs to be fat.