Do you ever stack up the reasons why you’re pissed off and then it just all flows out?
I’m just feeling so bloody pissed off this morning with DP. Don’t know if I’m being a dick but he’s absolutely infuriated me. Final straw is this morning I woke him up at 5 to 7 and asked if he would get up with the kids (4 and 11 months, who is breastfed and still wakes at least 3 or 4 times a night) so I could have another hour in bed before the school run. He’s just finally surfaced now which is useless as I’ve been up for ages now so am wide awake. Walks into the room like there’s no problem. He does this every time I ask him to get up. Sits there dozing and then says ‘will you just keep an eye on them whilst I brush teeth/have a shit/get dressed’ 😡
Spent 4 hours last night (6-10pm) in a&e with baby DS (he’s absolutely fine), was stood up the entire time walking round with him and rocking him as he was tired and ratty, finally got him brought him straight upstairs to feed to sleep, asked DP to grab me a drink as I was feeding him and his reply was ‘well I’m just about to go for a bath though’, even though older DS goes to bed at 7pm so what the actual fuck had he been doing for 3 hours!?
THEN he springs it on me that he isn’t sure if DSS (due to come tomorrow for the weekend) has a sickness bug, but not to worry as he would go and stay at his mums for the weekend and not spend anytime with me or the other 2 (not the first time this has happened - he fucked off during labour as he was tired and didn’t think anything was going to happen for a while. Then after DS was born left me that evening to go and see DSS and put him to bed when he could have stayed until I was transferred to the ward. I was in an observation room as had pre eclampsia and a PPH, had to have a MROP and a spinal in theatre so couldn’t get about).
And on top of this, I had a miscarriage 3 weeks ago (completely unplanned and we have been using contraception). We have always said we didn’t want more children but I’m guessing nature made the choice for us anyway. Since then he has mentioned sex at least 2 or 3 times a day. Hasn’t asked how I am emotionally etc. His response to the situation is ‘well we didn’t want more children anyway so it’s a blessing in disguise’.
Sorry for the rant but I’m just feeling so fucking pissed off at the minute! Fully prepared to told that maybe I’m just being a bit sensitive as I’m tired and stressed but it feels good to get it all out!!