Depression

[lolabe]

I'm sorry if this is in the wrong section but posting here for traffic.

For the past 12 months, I've really struggled with my mental health & this weekend, DH & I had an argument, I had a complete breakdown, kicking and breaking the wardrobe, lashing out, the full works. I felt suicidal.

I've been awake all night thinking about things & have made a long list of what I think may be causing it.

Reading up online, I think I am suffering with severe depression, anxiety & potentially agoraphobia.

I can't believe I've let myself get like this, I'm so sad & disappointed in myself.

I'm going to call the drs at 8 & try & get an appointment for today but I don't know what to say, I'm so nervous about going. Can anyone please offer me any advice, the best things to say, not say?!

Hi Lola

Write down how you feel and had note to GP if you cant talk.
Explain you're at breaking point and need some help.
GP may suggest meds and they can be very very helpful.

Try to suss out if your mental health is truly bad or if it's your marriage/situation etc. This can help you decide whether you need meds. Clinical depression and corcumstantial can be wuite different but no less awful.

Best of luck xxx

Thank you @KaliforniaDreamz I have written notes on my phone but feel so out of my depth & embarrassed about it all.

I think that it's a downward spiral, the marriage isn't working, am not able to give the energy to make it right, the marriage works less, feel even more useless, the marriage breaks down further.
It's a vicious cycle.

I'm just so nervous about seeing someone - it's pathetic compared to the challenges faced by others.

Try to let go of guilt - it serves no purpose at all, total waster of energy.
Ty to look at it like this - yo're about to take steps to right yourself.
A breakdown leads to a breakthrough.

x