It's ok to not be ok. I'm not ok...

[LoudestRoar]

Have been a long term sufferer of anxiety. Have been on anti depressants for 3 months now, and felt like I'd turned a corner.
My 2 year old got sick yesterday afternoon, which resulted in lots of stress and running around to get him seen today.
I have a feeling this has tipped me into the not ok side of things, even though I thought I was handling it well. I've been so snappy with everyone, which was one of the reasons why I started taking the anti depressants.
And it's this realisation that I'm not ok today, and things are going to push me over the edge sometimes, that has left me feeling a bit shit about myself.
I know that it's going to happen, but I don't want my kids to have to see me not happy and feeling irate.

It's not fair, and I'm so sick of this illness.
I'll be ok tomorrow. Lack of sleep due to little one being ill hasn't helped my mood, and my dh will take care of me when I get home.
Just needed a rant and an off load, so feel free to ignore this post....

It is ok to not be ok. I'm sure we have all had days like that. Don't be so hard on yourself, tomorrow is another day, just take it each day at a time.x

You've assessed why you're feeling not ok, you know you're going to be feeling a little better with some sleep and rest and you've had the strength to post on here and ask for help. OP, that's all incredible for you to do whilst in the middle of a tough day.

Focus on what needs to be done tonight and let tomorrow come when it's ready. Hope your little one recovers quickly.

I hear you OP I’ve had anxiety In varying degrees for 32 years - huge differences from agoraphobic& barely functional to being able to get on a plane without losing my shit. Some days it’s definitely ok not to be ok, rest as much as is possible & I hope your LO gets better soon.

Thank you all for the kind responses.
I'm getting frustrated with myself for mot coping, which is of course stupid.

I'm currently attending an anxiety and depression workshop once a week, so am using techniques that I've learnt.
DH should be home in less than an hour, dcs are in front of the tv. I'll be ok.

DS has just wee'd on me, but it was literally as dh walked through the door.

I'd sent him a message, and he'd stopped off to grab me a little pressie to cheer me up, and is currently bathing the dcs.
I'm going to relax for the rest of the evening now.