Following on from my previous "cold thread" it turns out I don't have a cold after all but I do have a nasty case of tonsillitis. I've been given antibiotics - erythromycin to take four times a day and told to rest which is easier said than done, and go back in two days.
I made a huge stupid mistake and rang my family who've never been supportive who had a massive go at me for getting ill and not getting antibiotics earlier and, then, what a total fuck up I am as an adult being disabled and a burden to a society which can't cope because of stupid fucked up workshy people like me (I'm disabled with recognisable conditions (the dwp granted my ESA and PIP without medical needed which is rare) albeit not to my family, I'd desperately love to work again but can't) and, decided now was the time to tell me I'd had serious problems with reactions to tonsillitis and antibiotics as a child - I'd assumed my terror about it was related to what happened to my relation who died after being sent home whilst waiting for an ambulance after they stopped breathing.
Now I'm really struggling with anxiety about all of this. Terrified it'll happen again. I even struggled to take the antibiotic despite having it before and being fine. I can't rest as I'm scared, my heart racing. I can't sleep because my throat is closing (that's partly due to my Ehlers Danlos and a known issue for me but obviously worse with a swollen tonsil).
There's a policy here now whereby tonsillitis isn't seen by a dr for at least six days to prove its bacterial, before that just over the counter/see pharmacist as "it's just a sore throat" (it's certainly not just a sore throat!) i was lucky that I rang in pharmacy and the pharmacist let rip at them about me needing to be seen immediately and the stupid policy and my GP was on call so could see me without me needing to discuss all my other conditions first, which I hate doing as it wastes time.
Anyway, any suggestions for what helps with tonsillitis? Or depression/anxiety/PTSD if you've any? I've a thread on here about positives, any other suggestions?
So far:
Gargling with salt water.
Drinking warm herbal teas (echinacea and raspberry and Camile and spearmint - the first I only drink when feeling ill).
Drinking loads of water.
Sucking strepsils every now and then (can't have full dose).